Incoming

The comic will be posted shortly, but first i'm going to type.
I need help.  I have been diagnosed with ADHD by every doctor, therapist, counselor, psychiatrist, psychologist, and school teacher I have ever come across- or who has ever come across me.  I've been on Ritalin, Adderall, and Strattera for a few months each, but I always end up forgetting to go the doctor and renew my prescription, show up for an appointment, or have money to pay for the meds.  I can almost never make myself finish something, and when I do, it's poorly done or done at the last minute (usually both.)

I remember when I was on Adderall- I made up a schedule accounting for every second of my day and pretty much followed it to the letter.  Yes, I sometimes became distracted and found myself far from where I was supposed to be...

I can't do this anymore.  There has to be something that can help me.  I tried St. John's Wort at the suggestion of a friend and got nothing.

I'm tired of going to bed with a plan and waking up with it completely forgotten.  I get nothing of what I plan done- well, sometimes I get halfway through what I wanted to do.  When I finally get down to it and start cleaning the kitchen, the counters are perfect- but I never seem to get to the floor.  It's been my main objective for two weeks (the floor) but I never seem to do more than clean the counters.

I borrow things.  I promise to return them the next day, but my brain seems to grace over them for a week.  I always return things, but never as soon as I intend to.  I was supposed to weed eat the yard three weeks ago.  I got a weed eater two weeks ago.  It rained today- so I have to wait until tomorrow, but will I get it done even if it's drier than the desert?

I hate not knowing myself.  I don't know from one day to the next if I'm going to remember to do something important or if I'm going to remember it at all- or if I do happen to remember, I hate not knowing if I'll remember WHY it's important or if I'll put it off...

well.  I guess I better get to Paint.